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Feb. 26th, 2008
Bad Timing - Grand Prize Winner
Feb. 26th, 2008 10:23 amAs many of you know, I'm attending ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
garething and stephtopia's wedding on April 1st. It's in Cuba and we're leaving March 30 and returning on April 7th.
Or maybe not because I've just received a Juror Summons for Friday March 28.
I have no problem doing my civic duty, but couldn't they have waited two weeks? Sadly, relaxing on the beach is not considered a good enough reason to be excused. I don't even want to be excused, I just want to postpone it a little.
garething and stephtopia's wedding on April 1st. It's in Cuba and we're leaving March 30 and returning on April 7th.Or maybe not because I've just received a Juror Summons for Friday March 28.
I have no problem doing my civic duty, but couldn't they have waited two weeks? Sadly, relaxing on the beach is not considered a good enough reason to be excused. I don't even want to be excused, I just want to postpone it a little.
The Feel-Good Movie of the Year
Feb. 26th, 2008 10:40 pmSo I just watched In Bruges. It was... Weird, but in a good way. I've rarely enjoyed a movie that was that punk that much. It has the advantage/disadvantage of being completely miss-marketed as a comedy. It is actually a very very dark film. However it has some really good performances and a helluva story. And some genuinely funny parts too.
It's hard to recommend it without giving away too much of the movie. I'll say this though - if you liked Fargo, you'll like In Bruges.
So what else has been going on?
Well there was the Oscar party. My roomies,devoidofthought and nosarious both attended, as did othelianna, stephtopia and garething. Rounding out the gang was JW and IB.
The ceremony was meh, the company made it all much better. Two things stand out from the ceremonies for me:
1) Diablo Cody is hot hot hot. I think every single person in the room wanted to sleep with her, regardless of their gender.
2) Jon Stewart (or whoever it was who made the decision - Gil Cates?) is cool as hell for bringing Markéta Irglová back on stage to finish her acceptance speech. I have missed one Oscar ceremony since 1980 and I have never seen anything like that before.
I've also discovered that JW is a bigger movie geek then I am. That would bother me more, except I've had to accept inferior movie geek stature towackynephews and whiggyone for years now.
A whole ton of SCA stuff went down this weekend. I alluded to archery and court in an earlier post. The next day was Curia, which was - weird. Not because of last weeks drama mind you, but because I'm now more aware of the personal politics going on just under the surface. It glides silently like a shark, barely leaving a ripple but making you worry just the same.
Curia is something I'm going to have to endure more then enjoy. Thankfully I'm also getting to know people better so I'm relaxing around them more. This helps when dealing with secret masters.
I'm a member of the Order of the Goutte de Sang now, which is still freaking me out. I looked up who else had it in Montengarde. Since An Tir was formed there's on the order of fifty or so people with this award. I know or have met about thirty of them (the ones I didn't know were from before my time in the SCA, some of them being around when rocks were still hot and runny). Every one of them (that I know) does way more then me. Kee-rist, this is like when I got my Golden Link, now I have to do even more to feel like I'm not a fraud.
Which brings me to Ennui. I'm not actually feeling it right now, which is remarkable in itself. However many of my friends are. I've read several blogs recently alluding to it. As a life-long sufferer of depression I'm here to tell you that the feeling does pass.
It's weird how our feelings are universal while at the same time being oh-so very personal. I feel inadequacy and doubt every time I try to do something in the SCA. I'm constantly jealous of my friends abilities while at the same time I feel proud for their achievements. This isn't contradictory - I'm happy for their recognition but envious of the easy way that some of them do things that, if I can do them at all, come to me only after a huge effort.
Which is why it's so very odd to hear these people describe the same feelings, but directed towards me. It's hard to think of yourself as the person that someone else wants to be because we focus on our faults and ignore our talents. This is doubly true because it feels wrong to focus on our talents - pride being one of the deadly sins.
So to my friends who are feeling out of sorts, I say this: Remember that your friends are there for you and this feeling cannot last forever. Spring is in the air. Cold snaps will still happen, but summertime is around the corner. I for one will be having a grand old time of it and I hope that you can join me in squeezing every last drop of enjoyment out it.
Well this was a rambling bit of flibberty-gibbet-ness. I hope I got my point across but fear that I haven't. Oh well, I'm tired and it's bed time.
It's hard to recommend it without giving away too much of the movie. I'll say this though - if you liked Fargo, you'll like In Bruges.
So what else has been going on?
Well there was the Oscar party. My roomies,
devoidofthought and nosarious both attended, as did othelianna, stephtopia and garething. Rounding out the gang was JW and IB.The ceremony was meh, the company made it all much better. Two things stand out from the ceremonies for me:
1) Diablo Cody is hot hot hot. I think every single person in the room wanted to sleep with her, regardless of their gender.
2) Jon Stewart (or whoever it was who made the decision - Gil Cates?) is cool as hell for bringing Markéta Irglová back on stage to finish her acceptance speech. I have missed one Oscar ceremony since 1980 and I have never seen anything like that before.
I've also discovered that JW is a bigger movie geek then I am. That would bother me more, except I've had to accept inferior movie geek stature to
wackynephews and whiggyone for years now.A whole ton of SCA stuff went down this weekend. I alluded to archery and court in an earlier post. The next day was Curia, which was - weird. Not because of last weeks drama mind you, but because I'm now more aware of the personal politics going on just under the surface. It glides silently like a shark, barely leaving a ripple but making you worry just the same.
Curia is something I'm going to have to endure more then enjoy. Thankfully I'm also getting to know people better so I'm relaxing around them more. This helps when dealing with secret masters.
I'm a member of the Order of the Goutte de Sang now, which is still freaking me out. I looked up who else had it in Montengarde. Since An Tir was formed there's on the order of fifty or so people with this award. I know or have met about thirty of them (the ones I didn't know were from before my time in the SCA, some of them being around when rocks were still hot and runny). Every one of them (that I know) does way more then me. Kee-rist, this is like when I got my Golden Link, now I have to do even more to feel like I'm not a fraud.
Which brings me to Ennui. I'm not actually feeling it right now, which is remarkable in itself. However many of my friends are. I've read several blogs recently alluding to it. As a life-long sufferer of depression I'm here to tell you that the feeling does pass.
It's weird how our feelings are universal while at the same time being oh-so very personal. I feel inadequacy and doubt every time I try to do something in the SCA. I'm constantly jealous of my friends abilities while at the same time I feel proud for their achievements. This isn't contradictory - I'm happy for their recognition but envious of the easy way that some of them do things that, if I can do them at all, come to me only after a huge effort.
Which is why it's so very odd to hear these people describe the same feelings, but directed towards me. It's hard to think of yourself as the person that someone else wants to be because we focus on our faults and ignore our talents. This is doubly true because it feels wrong to focus on our talents - pride being one of the deadly sins.
So to my friends who are feeling out of sorts, I say this: Remember that your friends are there for you and this feeling cannot last forever. Spring is in the air. Cold snaps will still happen, but summertime is around the corner. I for one will be having a grand old time of it and I hope that you can join me in squeezing every last drop of enjoyment out it.
Well this was a rambling bit of flibberty-gibbet-ness. I hope I got my point across but fear that I haven't. Oh well, I'm tired and it's bed time.
