The Dangers of Paranoia

[jamesq]

I've always had a problem with paranoia. Not the full-blown conspiracy-theorist-tin-foil-hat variety, just an aspect of my low self-esteem. Think of it as a habit of combining the question "What's the worst that could happen" with a vivid imagination.

I've been dreading this year's salary review at work, utterly convinced that my being fired was only a matter of time. It got so bad that I was seriously thinking about following The Brain out to Scotland. The assumption being that as soon as I got fired I'd have to hustle to grab a job out there.

The salary review was five minutes ago. I got a raise. I really need to learn how to relax.

Comments

Congrats...

[http://users.livejournal.com/-grog-/]

First, congratulations on the raise - that's always nice to see.


Second, I've never had a year where I've "looked forward" to review time - every slightly paranoid fantasy I can come up with comes up in my mind, and a few new ones just for giggles.