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jamesqThursday began the actual Estrella Archery tournaments. I shot... OK on the Thursday.
Later that night we decided to track down the Outlands party. I was finding it very difficult to keep warm, despite long underwear, warm garb and my bog coat. Also my energy levels were dropping fast. We got to the party when I realized that I had only enough energy to get back to camp - and that was only by burning some midnight oil. I said goodbye to my friends and did the old-man shuffle back to camp.
In hindsight this was clearly the cold/flu/whatever the hell I had clobbering me. Between illness and the anxiety-provoking dancing of the night before, I had used up all of my emotional currency.
Friday of course, I was still sick, still emotionally raw and I had no idea. So when I a) couldn't shoot worth a damn and b) got pissed off about it, I had my wee temper tantrum and took off from site.
Given my earlier breakdown at Quadwar two years ago, I think I just need to accept that I have an internal limit of five days for these things. Any event longer the that, I need to break up into four-day chunks with a day of "me time" thrown in every fifth day, where I just find a motel room and recharge. That was my original plan for this Estrella but on Thursday I felt I didn't need it. I was dead wrong on that though.
Later that night we decided to track down the Outlands party. I was finding it very difficult to keep warm, despite long underwear, warm garb and my bog coat. Also my energy levels were dropping fast. We got to the party when I realized that I had only enough energy to get back to camp - and that was only by burning some midnight oil. I said goodbye to my friends and did the old-man shuffle back to camp.
In hindsight this was clearly the cold/flu/whatever the hell I had clobbering me. Between illness and the anxiety-provoking dancing of the night before, I had used up all of my emotional currency.
Friday of course, I was still sick, still emotionally raw and I had no idea. So when I a) couldn't shoot worth a damn and b) got pissed off about it, I had my wee temper tantrum and took off from site.
Given my earlier breakdown at Quadwar two years ago, I think I just need to accept that I have an internal limit of five days for these things. Any event longer the that, I need to break up into four-day chunks with a day of "me time" thrown in every fifth day, where I just find a motel room and recharge. That was my original plan for this Estrella but on Thursday I felt I didn't need it. I was dead wrong on that though.
