From Pit to Pandora

[jamesq]

Still feeling down, but the wave is moving on. It helped that several people all weekend made a deliberate effort to keep me company. They didn't have to do this (and in some cases would probably have preferred doing other things) but it was appreciated.

I really wish I could strangle the part of me to death - it does nothing but make me feel miserable and alienate everyone around me. I hate it.

I saw Avatar yesterday. If you have the opportunity, go see it in 3D - it will blow you away. It's also a rollicking good adventure movie - a modern take on the "John Carter of Mars" genre.

It's not as good as Titanic, but it's still damn good. People may take that comment as evidence to go see Avatar regardless of the thoughts on Titanic.

In other news, I'm looking forward to it being four weeks in the future.

Comments

[sagaciouslu.livejournal.com]

Hey, Sunshine. I'm always up for a pint. All ya gotta do is ask...

[missymorgan1.livejournal.com]

You know, I keep getting it too. Some of it is winter. but some of it: I wish I could surgically remove that bit of my psyche as well: the part that says "Life is over for you: it is just going through the motions from here on in" and the bit that says "no one will ever really love you, they never have, because you are ultimately unlovable" - yeah, I could live without those.

So, I try to remember that most of the world feels this way, a lot of the time. My dad called it the "person movie" - we all have our own, and the trick is to forget yours and go be a cameo in someone else's.

Not always easy.

[jamesq]

It's not so much the season (I always get people going on about how I'm not getting enough sunlight. There are people with S.A.D. and I don't envy them, but it belittles the numerous issues I have to suggest that my problem is just a lack of sunlight. It's like saying "I'm sorry you're grieving the loss of your mother - have you tried getting more broccoli?") as the fact the season coincides with a number of important dates for me. I call it the "Birthday to Valentine's Suicide Season" not because these occasions happen to be in the dead of winter, but because they all serve to remind me that I'm past my half-way point.

Anyway, thanks for listening to my grousing. You seem to actually get it in a way many others don't, so a sympathetic ear is appreciated.

[missymorgan1.livejournal.com]

I get part of it - everyone has their own version. And I agree, there are dates: my slide usually starts in June now, culminating in a massive depression in August. If I could, I'd sleep the summer away....instead, I do what comes naturally: massive carbs, fats and sugars. (And then I do the same thing you do: beat myself up for gaining weight. Uh, which is better? Suicide or fat? Dunno, most days.)

Anyway, you have a lot of friends who think the world of you. I know I look forward to your posts, and miss your deadpan little zingers a LOT!