Stumbling Badly

[jamesq]

I mentioned in the current meme du jour that my biggest regret about being healthier is not being able to eat as much of something as I'd like. That is to say, eating until the feeling goes away because you've ate too much.

At it's core, this is fairly self-destructive. I'm happy that it's mostly gone away and sad because I do still occasionally stumble, always to my immediate and lasting regret.

Yesterday was one such stumble. spookiemonkie2, kermie_canada and I went to Banff. Among other things, I bought a big piece of maple walnut fudge. Which I proceeded to completely consume last night. I was halfway through it and already starting to feel queasy, but I just couldn't help myself. The amount of crap in my body gave me heartburn and I don't think I managed to fall asleep until the wee hours, despite going to bed at 10:30.

I'm still paying for it now, the next morning. I feel bloated and sick. I have no desire for anything like a breakfast and the rumblings from my stomach are not good.

Long term, I've probably blown my next weight watchers meeting.

It's frustrating because I know exactly why this is a bad thing to do. I know what the consequences are. I know that the alternative is far better. Yet I still pigged out. I'm starting to think anything "maple" is going to go on my list of "red light" foods.

Well I guess I'd better go for a run. Keep the day from being a total loss before it even begins.

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I used to be that way with food.. I forced myself to start buying smaller portions whenever I went somewhere.. It took me almost 6 months before I started to do that on a semi-consistent basis, and well over a year before I finally retrained myself that I really didn't need 3 triple burgers with 2 large drinks, 2 large fries, and several little desserts... I kept thinking I'd never be able to do this. It was hard, and I feel like it damned near killed me, but I did manage to get through it, and I feel much better now than I ever did before.

I know you have the will to stick with it should you decide to do as I've done.

Whatever you decide, best of luck to you...