Trapped in the Cocoon

[jamesq]

Still depressed, though it's ebbing away thankfully. Not quick enough for my liking though.

This was not a good week for me. I'm seriously thinking of talking to the boss about taking a sabbatical. Assuming it's even an option. I feel like I'm struggling to get out of a cocoon, but just can't break through.

I did get a good piece of advice on Friday at archery. I was shooting terrible and getting frustrated by it. I turned to see EP frowning at me, clearly disappointed in my shooting.

Now EP is the best archer in the kingdom, so when he says "Can I give you some advice", I decided to listen.

"When you miss the shot, you try to make up for it by immediately going for a bullseye. It's like you have to erase the last shot with a better one now. Then you go so fast and you're so tensed up that you do worse, not better. Don't try for a perfect shot after a bad shot. Take your time and try for one that's just one step better."

By one step better I understood him to mean go for a two-point shot after the one-point shot, rather then the five-point shot.

I went away and did that, ending up with a much better score then I previously had. I'm glad I didn't snark off at him like my original urge was. This reminded me of my advice to others when i used to bowl:

1. Don't bowl angry.
2. Go 10% slower

It's something I need to apply in the here-and-now of my life and not just my hobbies.

Don't try for a big win right now, just try to do a little bit better then I did yesterday. Go a little slower instead of spinning my wheels. Don't bowl (drive/shoot/work/live) angry.

I'm tired in my mind and my body and my soul. It's a weariness brought on by stress and depression. tomorrow, I'll try to be one step better. But first, some sleep.

Comments

[ersatz-marduk.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the advice. May it continue to serve you well.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_thwap_/]

very wise.. I, as well, shall endeavour to follow your words as I feel I could benefit from them as well...

[bungle-lord.livejournal.com]

I do not know about you, but the changing daylight may be a factor.
I am feeling bone tired in both body and mind at the moment. This is despite having my drug level raised a week and a half ago. Now is about the time that the length of daylight decreases at its most rapid rate. Some people have bodies that react to that. And some people react to the reaction of others. And some people seem to be babbling. We will go away now and come back later, eh?

[evilscientist.livejournal.com]

I know I began to feel much better when I got a full spectrum light installed in my living room. It's amazing what light therapy can do. Can't hurt to try.

[hadriel.livejournal.com]

I don't forget to look at how far you have come on a regular basis. It is easy to forget what you have accomplished if you only look at what you still want to accomplish.

[jamesq]

I've only ever wanted one thing. Everything else is just steps along the way.