Answers For catalytic's Interview Questions

[jamesq]

Kee-rist I took forever getting around to these.

1) If you were supreme ruler, would you rather rule through Fear or Infatuation?

Fear, it lasts so much longer and I could get more done that way.

2) If an attractive member of the preferred sex approached you in a bar and boldly introduced themselves by inviting you up their room right now for sex, and you knew your current partner(s) would be okay with it, would you go?

No, because I could not bring myself to believe that the offer was genuine. Too many times when I was growing up did I get "golden" offers (not for sex) that were set ups for ridicule and humiliation by my so-called peers. I've been burned too many times to ever blindly accept altruism from anyone who wasn't already in my trusted circle.

Complicating matters is my vivid imagination. Too many urban legends where the satisfied male discovers "Welcome to the world of AIDS" written on the bathroom mirror (or worse, that he's in a bathtub full of ice and his kidneys are missing) are in my mind. Less urban-legend-ish would be someone setting me up to be mugged, or blackmailed on a made-up rape charge.

Ultimately, it's all part of my fucked-up self-esteem. The thought that someone could actually be sexually attracted to me is inconceivable next to the thought that someone would pretend to be attracted to me in an effort to hurt me. If the past is any indication, the latter is much more likely then the former.

But lets suppose that I did think it was a genuine offer. Lets further suppose that I have a current partner and that the moon is made of green cheese. It would still be "No", because having a partner is too precious to risk losing.

Going so far into what-if land that it has the level of reality of a D20 source book, lets pretend that:

1) The offer is made.
2) I believe it to be genuine.
3) I have access to protection.
4) I'm single.

Sure, What the hell. I could use a good fuck.

3) Do you have a scar on your body that you are proud of... and why?

People are proud of scars? I suppose if you're into scarification, which I'm not (I have neither tattoos nor piercings. Don't really see the point in them). I have a scar on my right middle finger I got a few years ago which is noteworthy. I'm not proud of it though - it's a sign that I fucked up.

4) Would you ever be willing to work in the porn industry, in whatever capacity? (ie. not necessarily a "star", perhaps as the accountant)

Sure. Provided it wasn't exploitive, violent or degrading porn. It's not the sex that would bother me - it would be working for scumbags. If they weren't scumbags, I'd work for them.

Using porn is no different from being in porn or enabling it's distribution. The only thing that's different is your position in the chain. Anything else is hypocritical.

5) If you did work in the porn industry, would you tell your family who you worked for?

Now? Sure. When my Mom was still alive? Not a chance (and yes, that would make me a big fat hypocrite. Cest la vie).

More interview answers from others coming soon!

Comments

[catalytic.livejournal.com]

"Ultimately, it's all part of my fucked-up self-esteem. The thought that someone could actually be sexually attracted to me is inconceivable next to the thought that someone would pretend to be attracted to me in an effort to hurt me. If the past is any indication, the latter is much more likely then the former."

I'm right there with you. You echoed my response to that question so perfectly I had to make sure it was your journal I was reading and not some entry I had written in my sleep and forgotten.