A Dissection of the Meme-oires
Sep. 30th, 2010 02:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jamesqSo that was a weird month.
I feel tense, stressed and emotionally exhausted. A lot of it was from the amount of introspection that the meme required. I'm not used to that level of it. I had to dig around in some of the more musty parts of my psyche.
Aside: The feelings aren't entirely because of that meme. I've been reading this thread on Making Light, and work has been stressful the last week or so.
I think this has triggered my yearly birthday-to-valentines depression a month ahead of schedule. Hopefully my trip to Victoria in 9 days will improve my mood.
So what have I accomplished? Well I've put way too much information about my past, my mental issues and my sex life out onto the net. Even the positive posts had traces of emo whining in them. I'm not happy about that - I really need to bury that shit so that I don't inadvertently push people away.
Hopefully there was enough of the positive for people to read and be informed without me seeming like a basket-case. I really can function rather well day-to-day.
And the next few big posts won't have much to do with me, because damn, I want to write about something else.
I feel tense, stressed and emotionally exhausted. A lot of it was from the amount of introspection that the meme required. I'm not used to that level of it. I had to dig around in some of the more musty parts of my psyche.
Aside: The feelings aren't entirely because of that meme. I've been reading this thread on Making Light, and work has been stressful the last week or so.
I think this has triggered my yearly birthday-to-valentines depression a month ahead of schedule. Hopefully my trip to Victoria in 9 days will improve my mood.
So what have I accomplished? Well I've put way too much information about my past, my mental issues and my sex life out onto the net. Even the positive posts had traces of emo whining in them. I'm not happy about that - I really need to bury that shit so that I don't inadvertently push people away.
Hopefully there was enough of the positive for people to read and be informed without me seeming like a basket-case. I really can function rather well day-to-day.
And the next few big posts won't have much to do with me, because damn, I want to write about something else.
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Date: 2010-09-30 09:02 pm (UTC)Though really the cat who shits on the bed would not be a favourite friend of mine.
:-)
Perspective.
Date: 2010-10-01 05:15 am (UTC)It might seem like the introspection didn't do anything but up your regularly scheduled depression, but I think you will see that it helped ward it off. If you let it.
I don't want to start a bromance here, 'cause I don't know you that well, but you're not as fat as you think you are. Coming from a technically obese person, take it for what it is. You're an awesome person.
I will post something to the effect, but the 30 day meme has helped me see somethings that were just sorta of nebulous before. It has helped me.