The Downside of German Class
Nov. 16th, 2004 10:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jamesqOne of the reasons why I am taking German is to confront my social phobia. Being forced to talk to people, and to do it in front of other people is exactly the sort of thing I need help with. Unfortunately it's also exactly the sort of thing that's going to terrify me.
Case in point. The instructor was having a conversation with me. It was all going well until he asked me - something. I had no clue what he was saying, my mind just drew a blank.
Later I fucked up during an assignment and got corrected in front of everyone. And the thing I fucking hate is that it's stuff I know if I were writing it down. I would do great on a written exam. But I haven't internalized any of it yet so I get flustered in conversation.
During the break I went into the stairwell and just had a little nervous breakdown for a few minutes. I was very close to just grabbing my stuff and taking off, but if I had done that It would have been an awful setback.
I went back and the rest of the class was OK. I must practice conjugating my verbs more.
Case in point. The instructor was having a conversation with me. It was all going well until he asked me - something. I had no clue what he was saying, my mind just drew a blank.
Later I fucked up during an assignment and got corrected in front of everyone. And the thing I fucking hate is that it's stuff I know if I were writing it down. I would do great on a written exam. But I haven't internalized any of it yet so I get flustered in conversation.
During the break I went into the stairwell and just had a little nervous breakdown for a few minutes. I was very close to just grabbing my stuff and taking off, but if I had done that It would have been an awful setback.
I went back and the rest of the class was OK. I must practice conjugating my verbs more.
