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Montengarde 12th Night 2019
Jan. 19th, 2019 11:13 pmI am emotionally exhausted, and I didn't even do anything. Certainly, there are many people who busted their asses who deserve to be exhausted. Still, "deserves got nothing to do with it".
I mostly enjoyed myself though. The only problem was the normal one of the last few years: The number of people who clearly be happy to never see me again, and the people who are utterly indifferent to me, outnumber the people who are glad to see me. That's daunting. I'm finding that there is simply no longer a JamesQ-shaped hole in the SCA. I could probably make one if I wanted to, with a lot of effort. I just don't think that the effort is worth it. The people who enjoy my company are my friends in or out of the SCA, and the people who snub me are not the sort of people I feel like trying to impress. There are people I like who only socialize through the Society though. I miss them.
This sounds like I'm damning the event. I'm not. It was very well run, everything appeared to run smoothly, the feast was yum, and I'm happy to have seen my friends step up or step down (as the case may be). The old Baron and Baroness did a great job, and I'm sure the new B&B will as well. They're all competent people who care deeply about doing a good job. Good luck to them.
I'm not precisely done (as I've said before), but I really need a good reason to go, rather than a good reason not to. I might go to Quad War, simply because I'd like to spend a weekend camping/drinking/shooting because that sounds fun. I'd probably avoid court though (I've determined that certain aspects of court are triggering). I'd need enough spoons to maintain an encampment though, or access to a cheap camper. Unlikely, but not super-unlikely.
So yeah, that's the current state of the SCA for me personally. tl;dr - good event, but took too many emotional spoons to do on a regular basis.
I mostly enjoyed myself though. The only problem was the normal one of the last few years: The number of people who clearly be happy to never see me again, and the people who are utterly indifferent to me, outnumber the people who are glad to see me. That's daunting. I'm finding that there is simply no longer a JamesQ-shaped hole in the SCA. I could probably make one if I wanted to, with a lot of effort. I just don't think that the effort is worth it. The people who enjoy my company are my friends in or out of the SCA, and the people who snub me are not the sort of people I feel like trying to impress. There are people I like who only socialize through the Society though. I miss them.
This sounds like I'm damning the event. I'm not. It was very well run, everything appeared to run smoothly, the feast was yum, and I'm happy to have seen my friends step up or step down (as the case may be). The old Baron and Baroness did a great job, and I'm sure the new B&B will as well. They're all competent people who care deeply about doing a good job. Good luck to them.
I'm not precisely done (as I've said before), but I really need a good reason to go, rather than a good reason not to. I might go to Quad War, simply because I'd like to spend a weekend camping/drinking/shooting because that sounds fun. I'd probably avoid court though (I've determined that certain aspects of court are triggering). I'd need enough spoons to maintain an encampment though, or access to a cheap camper. Unlikely, but not super-unlikely.
So yeah, that's the current state of the SCA for me personally. tl;dr - good event, but took too many emotional spoons to do on a regular basis.
